I miss.

I miss those days where i know everything about my friends. What happened to them, what they did, what they are about to do, and what they are doing. Now in NS, all i can do is hope that there is a slight chance that i can catch up with them on week ends.

I guess this is growing up for you. You lose touch with your close friends, and start to know more about completely new people.

It's like a fucking cycle.

Firstly when you just graduated from primary school, you entered an environment where you are very afraid to talk to people etc. And when you get a bunch of good friends, guess what? You have to move on! Poly, JC.

When you go to JC and attempt to make new friends, here comes A levels, that would screw up upside down and not giving you any chance to be with your friends.

And when A's is finally over, the country comes in and take you away from your friends and keep you in an environment where all the people around you are guys, and are facing the same problem as you.

After spending time and living together for 4 months, its time to move on again. Move on to unit, to sispec, to ocs.

I can see it already. A few months later i have to be seperated from my friends again, and 2 years later seperated from my army friends to go to U, 6 years later seperated from my U friends to go to work, and so on.

Its like a fucking cycle. And i hate it.

But sadly its something we all have to deal with. Something i quote from my old blog post.

"Change is scary, but its also inevitable. It is up to you to make the best out of it."

But right now its kind of hard for me to make the best out of it.